112 degrees and time to play without phones.
July 19, 2019
I’ve decided to call this time in my life my gap year. I’m just exploring and opening space in my life for new things to emerge.
And it feels really great.
This week I went to Tuscan. I don’t think I’d like living in Arizona, because I love trees, but I love the air there. And the vastness of it all.
My friend Courtenay and I spent three nights just relaxing and treating ourselves to some rest and great, great food at this amazing resort called Miraval.
We slack lined, that was fun. And harder than it looks.
We went to this three-hour session with a man named Wyatt Webb. He has a course called, “it’s not about the horse.” I can’t explain it exactly but I had some seriously wonderful aha moments with Wyatt. Here are some things from the top of my mind that I walked away learning.
1. There’s a difference between guilt and shame. Guilt is “I did something and I’m sorry.” Shame is there is “Something wrong with me”. Shame is a horrible thing that only humans feel. I think a life without shame is a life that’s 100% free. I want that. My word lately is FREE. Sit with a horse for three hours and yoy’ll understand that they don’t feel shame. They don’t care what you think about them. At all. Good lesson.
2. We all have stories. And we’re all super hard on ourselves. I’m letting that go. Bit by bit all of those “hard on myself” days are behind me.
I put my phone on pause during this trip. I didn’t take a single photo except this one on the ride to the resort which is not that great. Someone this week said in taking photos of everything as it happens we don’t leave space for making memories. I like the idea of leaving space for memories. I’m going to do that more often.
We ran into some terrible delays on the way home and got stuck in a super crowded ATL airport. I can remeber a time when airplane delays made my blood pressure soar. And this just didn’t. Maybe I’m finally learning that I can’t control much of anything, especially the weather.
Or maybe I am just learning to be presesnt. (Thanks Courtenay!)
